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LIVING with CHRONIC COMPLEX PTSD

LIVING with CHRONIC COMPLEX PTSD   Are you living with chronic complex PTSD? Do you feel ashamed because you or others think you should be better by now? Are your expectations of healing realistic for you? Do you think that after x-amount of months or years of therapy, group therapy, self-help books, etc. that your healing should be finished or at least you should feel more healed?! Are you feeling pressured from others to get better or be better or act better? What is in your control? What expectations are realistic for you? It is difficult to suffer from Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) or any illness or disorder. An illness or disorder that is not visible may provide different challenges. People tend to have more compassion for a person who has visible wounds, a cast, a wheelchair, etc. or who is recovering from a heart attack or stroke or cancer. When I lived in Germany, I was given the opportunity to perform an act of kindness. Someone asked me to give a ride to an elderly couple that I had never met. This small deed led to a friendship of special proportions. Denise and her husband lived in another part …

PTSD and AGING

PTSD and AGING: THE ROAD CONTINUES

PTSD and AGING: THE ROAD CONTINUES   PTSD and aging is a topic that crossed my mind recently. I have been dealing with more symptoms of PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) lately due to a stressful situation. As I struggle with various symptoms of chronic complex PTSD, I wondered if my resiliency was weakened due to my aging.  I am now in my early sixties. There are tools I use to deal with stress as well as with PTSD symptoms. Why is my struggle more intense this time? Of course, there is more than one answer to that question. In my blog post, “Does PTSD Last Forever?”,  I addressed how long PTSD might last. (See: http://roadtofreedomandpeace.com/ptsd-last-forever/ ) Aging though adds complexity to the PTSD situation. PTSD steals my present. It causes me to lose the peace of the present moment. Depression, hypervigilance, panic, anxiety, etc. cloud the clarity of the goodness of life. It can be harder to sit in gratitude and hope. There are three articles I would like to share with you today. “Aging Too Fast, Too Young” points out that traumatic events can lead to aging faster than usual. (https://www.bu.edu/today/2016/ptsd-accelerated-aging/) “The idea that traumatic events can have a ...
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ONE TRAUMA MOMENT OF MANY AND ITS IMPACT

ONE TRAUMA MOMENT of MANY and ITS IMPACT   Individuals who suffer from Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD) have been subjected to trauma of a long duration. As a survivor of decades of abuse and torture, my situation was ongoing and filled with trauma. I will focus on one trauma moment for this post. Before doing so, below is information regarding C-PTSD for those who are interested. Maybe one day, I will devote an entire post to the subject. The U.S. Department of Veterans Affairs states the following: "What types of trauma are associated with Complex PTSD? During long-term traumas, the victim is generally held in a state of captivity, physically or emotionally, according to Dr. Herman (1). In these situations the victim is under the control of the perpetrator and unable to get away from the danger. Examples of such traumatic situations include: Concentration camps Prisoner of War camps Prostitution brothels Long-term domestic violence Long-term child physical abuse Long-term child sexual abuse Organized child exploitation rings" (https://www.ptsd.va.gov/professional/ptsd-overview/complex-ptsd.asp) Pete Walker writes: "The causes of Cptsd range from severe neglect to monstrous abuse. Many survivors grow up in houses that are not homes – in families that are as loveless ...